being dumb..

Dumbness is an expression, the feeling though is being voiceless...if i can coin this situation as a monotonous diseased condition then, yes again it started...again...again im losing my voice...i have words, so many of them, so many, but confided in my mind..."overcrowding" is the word, yes my thoughts again overcrowding, casting a huge slithery shadow on my mind, yes they slither...im hopelessly positive to find my voice again, sing my heart out like a lark, but then again nothing comes out. I love them, as they all love me. but so much to comprehend, and so little coming out. Haven't felt this dumb for a while, and here it is again, relapsing over n over,like some weird carcinoma. I wish i could be chirpy, talkative again, i miss being the cheerful me.

N.B: I'm diagnosed with chronic obstructive pulmonary disorder(Again!). Few diseases kill you slowly, and they've got no cure, no matter how strong or positive you are you cannot cure a few heartaches ever.