ill get over..it will just take some time...

ur touch doesnt feel d same..d elivated heartrate,n throbbing noise,even d quick shivers,chills n goosebumps are gone...nothing is there..ur touch feels different,like some monotonous routine day-to-day-got-use-to-it thing..life is a hell lot different,i have changed..im a grown-up now,i can make it out by this nothingness inside..nothing is left to feel..except my daily visits to memory lane..where our fingers touch,u hold my hand firmly,take me in ur arms..then we both let go.. n i live on..

in this race its not about winning..its not about position either,its about wether u get selected or not,that 2 according to ur own comfort corner...and im blessed...im fit,atleast able,so i got selected..finally!d procedure,d path,d exhaustion doesnt count..d end product matters..just like profit n loss..who said u have to play fare?when life n system isnt fare on u,fuck justice..be fare to urself..this is a damn cold blooded race,if u win u have it all..if u loose u have to fall..its natural selection...
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sigh...

finally im free..free from all my obsessions...i cn feel it..i have grown up...i know now what maturity n independence mean..n im both..cz iv learnd to let go of things...let go of people..being free is all about self-controll..n i have it over myself..i have learned to accept n deny according to situation n my own will..im sure i can take it from here without failure..i can live 4 maself,without anyone influencing me...kuddos to myself...sigh!few things r still not for sale....

i feel good..d rain has finally entered my system,n west bengal too...all that stickyness is replaced by wet touch...i feel like a mermaid...he makes love to me unknowingly,he says i love him,n i say i dunno...i have a soul of cloud..got my name cloudy too...am i?or am i not?im sorry i neglected all that true n real in my bitterness..bt nw i feel like me again...n i can actually relate to bella minus the super natural shit..

viewing ravan by maniratnam was a gr8 n memorable experience..i will recall it all my life..it made to the list..my list of favourite top ten memories..d hug is still number one,and there is d day i met sudip..n this one is favourite bcoz of specified reasons..dunno much bout d movie,but i got real wormth,comfort n serenity...... haauuttt he is..